Surrender!  How do you feel when you hear that word?  Does it make you tense up?  Feel out of control?  Are you filled with the urge to fight back, refusing to give up the reigns and surrender?

If you were sitting here next to me, you would be able to see my heart rate increase as we begin the conversation about Surrendering.  I’m one that likes to have control and am definitely all about knowing the “plans”!  I mean, if I’m honest, not much happens in my household without me being at the center of the plans.  Planning is my thing!

Now, let’s pause to imagine God laughing as I type these words.  Because, I KNOW, I provide humor for him on a daily basis!  I mean, who am I kidding?  I have NO CONTROL!  I am not the Ultimate planner of my life and how it will unfold.  HE is!

I’ve been spending a lot of time the past few months slowing down and being still.  Working to give up the reigns I love so much to hold on to and just frankly, getting out of God’s way.  Y’all, I can wholeheartedly tell you I am a work in progress…probably always will be but I’m making progress nonetheless.  I am learning the beauty in what truly surrendering to God really means.  I am finding peace and freedom in not “knowing” what the next step is all the time.  Yes, I really just typed that!  I know…crazy, right?  But SOOO true, girl!

Right now I feel like God has placed a blind fold over my eyes to help me learn to blindly trust Him and let Him be the ruler over my life, day by day and minute by minute.  Easy?  Ummmmm…NO WAY!  But I am starting to really see the fruit of being blind.  Seeking God first every day and giving my relationship with Him quality time is becoming a deep rooted desire in my heart and mind every morning as I wake.

It is so easy to get wrapped up in the world!  All the “Things”; I mean it really never ends, unless, WE make a choice.  Choosing God, seeking Him for the next step in our lives instead of what people on Instagram or Facebook would lead us to believe is next; that is the sweet spot!  God is the sweet spot!  And He’s got me and you!

He works is so many amazing ways that my mind is continually blown.  One of the things I have been praying for and asking for him to intervene in is to make me desire to want to spent more time with him.  And because He is a good, good Father, that desire is growing by the day!  And it isn’t just a quick 5 minutes of reading a devotional to check the box.  It is reading multiple devotionals, scripture, journaling, being still and praying.  And that time is beautiful!  Sacred!  A time when God lays things on my heart and speaks over me because I am making myself deaf to the noise of life during that time so I can BE with Him.  I mean, REALLY, be present!

He is working in me and I know this will allow him to work through me too!  So, while surrendering used to cause my entire body to grow tense, I am learning to lean in, laying my life and all that I have at his feet.  Surrendering it all with a joyful heart and an excitement of how He will use this transformation for His good!  And even when I have a lapse in judgement to try and take the reigns back, God is there is lovingly loosens my grip and reminds me that His plan is always going to be FAR greater than any plan I can orchestrate!  And, I am beyond grateful for that reminder because I do believe that with every fiber of my being but old habits sometimes die hard!

Can I get an Amen?

XO,

Christy